Brooklyn At Night

So Brooklyn doesn't like to sleep by herself, which is my fault. The first night in the hospital she slept on me in my bed. Then the first night at home she slept with me in the rocker chair. We tried to put her in her bassinet the second night so I could sleep on the couch right beside her, but that didn't work either. About 30 minutes after we turned the lights out, Brooklyn woke up screaming. The hat that the hospital had given us and told us to keep on her head so she would stay warm, had gotten pulled down all the way over her face and was suffocating her. It freaked me out so bad and I still to this day can picture seeing her with that hat over her face in my head and it scares me to death.

So every night since then she has pretty much slept with me. I am so worried about her suffocating or choking in her sleep that I hate putting her down at night. The whole SIDS thing also really freaks me out. I have gotten better about trying to put her to sleep in her bassinet, but now she doesn't want anything to do with it. She will sleep in there for about 5 minutes before she starts crying and I have to pick her back up to hold her. We've tried all the tricks... a sound machine, a heart beat, a night light, a sleep positioner, a higher end sleep positioner that has a heart beat and vibrates, but nothing works. So now we are trying to put her in the bassinet during the day to get her used to laying in there to see if that will work.

I'm afraid I have started a bad habit, but yet I don't really mind because with her laying on me I am aware of every move and noise she makes and that makes me feel more comfortable, and I think makes Brooklyn feel more safe as well. Once she is laying on me though, she goes right to sleep and will only wake up when it is time for her to eat again. It wasn't until this past Monday night that we finally started having problems, but that is a whole other story.

Love,
Jennifer